This season's new trend

Perfectionism is out of style. What is in style? The way things actually happen, real life, messes, anxiety, magical moments, anxiety, worry, hope, a brighter future. Spread it around- real life is in fashion. I keep thinking that I started living without guilt a long time ago. Then I realize that the guilt I have for my less than perfect life means that I stop myself from doing the things that matter most in my life. This past weekend I spent some quality time in the hospital with my son. A mix of constant worry and gratitude that I could just hold him and be with him through his illness. We got to share a room with some crack-heads and a group of thier friends hanging out ALL DAY LONG. Curtains never really give you any privacy. I tend to be very private person, so that was an interesting experience for me. I kept thinking the whole time- this isn't about me. It kept me from feeling sorry for myself. I was there for my new little baby and not for me. We are home now and he is fine. I am so grateful. When I got back I needed to start taking care of the other things in life, worrying about whether my son is in the right school for kindergarten, paying the bills, and various other things. I see that while I was there in the hospital I didn't worry about anything else, I didn't feel guilty for not worrying about everything all at once. Guilt is out of style when it comes to mom stuff. This season I'm going to concentrate on one thing at a time and be happy about it. At least I'm going to try.